Someday, when someone asks me how I am,
I’m not going to say
“I’ve been better.”
I’m not going to say
“I’ll be okay.”
I’ll tell them
“I’m better. I’m okay. I made it.”
We used to stay up on the phone,
Talking ‘till the sun was known.
We talked and talked about ourselves,
And what we hide deep enough where none can ever delve.
We told each other secrets,
The things that made us feel the weakest.
I miss the time when we weren’t quite sure,
What we wanted—who we were.
But life continues on and on,
The troubles we’re facing can only make us strong.
Although things are hard,
And we won’t get out unmarred,
I know we can do it,
And we will get through it.
I loved you then, and I love you now,
In this moment, to you I make a vow.
No matter what we may become, I’ll never forget where we’ve come from.
I’ll cherish our time until the last day,
And I promise you I’ll try to stay.
The night whispered to me the secrets the day was too afraid to speak of.
To those out there who feel broken and bruised
Whose hearts have been shattered, whose bodies were used.
This is for you, for those without a voice,
Trapped in a world that’s filled with white noise.
You’re not alone, this I can swear,
If you just look around so many are there.
Wanting to help you, there if you fall,
People who will stay by your side through it all.
To those out there who feel there is no hope,
I pray that this story may help you to cope.
You’re stronger than you think and braver than you know,
And when you’re in need, there are places to go.
You’ve got this, you’re okay,
You can make it through another day.
Do you care what I was going to say?
Or are you just relieved that you don’t have to turn me down again?
~K.
You promised me I’d know that I am loved and wanted.
I tell myself you love me—I know you do.
But why is it I don’t feel wanted?
Why does it feel like I could disappear and life would continue on like normal.
You promised…please be careful before you break that promise entirely.
I don’t want to end things,
But I fear I may have to,
I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place,
With no clue what to do. I think I still love you
But it’s so damn hard
With everything you’ve put me through.
You’ve changed a lot
And I’m not quite sure if I’m holding onto Something that’s long gone,
Or if I’ll be surprised one day when you return
And thank me for being strong.
But what if I’m stuck waiting,
And that day never comes?
What if I’m trapped by my own doing
Stuck under my own two thumbs.
’m trying to understand.
But I can’t,
And
It Hurts
I met you in the Wintertime,
Your words warmed me within.
I will admit I feared you,
Because of all the pain I’d lived in.
But you were only gentle,
Like any summer breeze.
And yet, my fear continued.
A sentence flung across my heart:
“What if he leaves?”
You showed no sign of Wanderlust,
And right by me you stayed.
Through thick and thin you gained my trust,
By now your dues have been more than paid.
I’m ready now to show you me,
In all my broken glory.
But I caution you before we start,
I’ll give you my all.
But please be careful,
For all I’m giving you
Is my heart.
The map in my room is filled to the brim,
Pins stuck in places I’m lucky to have been
Pins stuck in places I want to go,
Pins stuck in places I’d love to call home.
The map in my room is a plan for my life,
A reason to make it through all of this strife.
©2018
